Me say Hello

Wow! What an abandon blog…I can’t remember the last time I visited my own page. As the truth speaks, I have been super duper busy with works and wedding preparation. Almost 65% has been done. Yes, I am a busy lady.

And yes people, only 27 days left. Mode: excited + a racing heartbeat

Susah Hati

- susahnya la hati bila ada adik perempuan ni...orang suka la, nak ajak keluar la...

- itu belum lagi bila dah ada anak sendiri...

- org ofis lak dok ckp, bila ada anak lelaki sok lagi buat kepala pening

- mana lagi baik, anak perempuan ke anak lelaki?

Latest Update

No, I was not lazy. I just could not find convenience time to update my story. Whenever Internet connection was in front of me, I totally focusing on the compulsory tasks first and by the time I shut down my PC, I knew I have forgotten about putting a new entry on my own blog. So these are the things I have been doing lately, completely for sharing:

1) I was exploring National Geographic website, and I found their page as very interesting and informational. That has eventually put me an extra financial saddle after realizing there are so many beautiful places on Earth that I have not explored. By saying this, I need to save more and more money to make this wish comes true.

2) The King and I bought ourselves four books from National Geographic Traveler collection. 500 Sacred Places of a Lifetime, 500 Drives of a Lifetime, 100 Journeys of a Lifetime, and the June edition for Traveler. They are cool and not cheap! I need to make a reminder to keep the receipt for this year’s tax exemption.

3) I pampered myself this week as well with two novels, Toxic Bachelor by Danielle Steel and The Library of Gold, a spy-investigation theme story written by Gayle Lynds. I just started reading Steel’s and has arrived page 141. I also purchased two spiritual religious books last two weeks when I visited MPH with my sister at hometown. I am going to start reading it soon after I finish with Toxic Bachelor.

4) My sister came visiting me last weekend. We had our great time together, went shopping for Father’s Day gift and mom’s birthday present. The King and I drove her to Low Yatt and she got herself a new mobile phone. We had our dinner at Naili’s in Sentul and the next day we chose Thai food to feed the lunch’s appetite. We took her to watch The Green Lantern in 3D, and I tell you, watching it at 12 midnight, I was not pretty sure if I like the movie or not. Half of me was in the cinema hall, and another half has fallen asleep. Anyway, to be honest, I feel very comfortable having my sister around and as a grown up kid, we have a lot things in common, and just so many topic to talk. (OK, she talks more than I do, as I prefer to listen to her stories, and laugh at her jokes).

5) I missteps and fell down from the stairs. That was last week. And three days ago, the King was fondly following my step as his feet tripped on his way out of the bathroom. The right foot swells, so no badminton and running for us this week.

6) I know I should not waste money, but the handbag at Voir was just perfect for me. It’s denim and I never had any denim type of handbag before. So I grabbed one for myself. They gave 10% discount. I guess this time I could forgive myself.

Well, not much I can share actually. I took some pictures, I will upload them in my next entry. Life has been secluded with soups and steamboat for a whole month, but I like it seriously. Office is always busy. Tenders are everywhere. Datelines are waving. WORK WORK WORK! I am looking forward to the final Maharaja Lawak next week June 24^th. I am now watching ‘Still, Marry Me’ the Korean movie and going to finish it very soon. On wedding preparation, I cannot think straight. With the King busy with projects and clients, I don’t think this is the time to buy the material for the reception baju melayu. I hope he can spend some time in July to settle a few things outstanding that needs him to involve. See you guys around! =)

Latest Update

Hello readers,

First, I miss blogging so much. Second, my family and I just came back from Vietnam. We had a really great time there. I am quite busy with office works that have been abandoned for a week long. I will upload photos taken during the trip in my next entry. See ya!

*Ai Ai, who amazed by herself for not putting on weight during this holiday trip. Thumbs up!!! Hehe...*

Dup Dap

I logged into my blog account this morning, and I was so surprised (even now I am still)

WHAT…????

5 months, 4 weeks and 2 days @ 182 days left

to my wedding day. My stomach is shrinking. My eyes cannot stop blinking.

Otto ka je? (What should I do in Korean…*grin*)

Easy Breezy Trust

A friend asked me “How did you meet your fiancé?”. I told her we met at Uni. He was my senior. We were from a different faculty but same hostel college. She asked me again, “Do you trust him?”. It took me a few minutes to answer her this time. But I am sure my answer was very sincere. I told her, “I trust him. Besides it takes me 3 years to solely trust him. To build trust is not easy. I used to be a jealous girlfriend. He has the look and at my end, I do not think that I am pretty. I always had this doubt whenever he received sms or phone calls. Then I started doing funny things like checking his messages, his contacts, inbound outbound calls, and my fiancé (that time was my boyfriend) just let me checked whatever I wanted. Like when I asked him one day “Aren’t you feel scared that I may find something uneasy?” He answered, “I do nothing wrong. Why must I worry?” Only during our third year being a couple, the habit of checking hand phone slowly faded and that was when I know that I trusted him and I wanted to be with him.

Imagining one good self takes 3 years to build trust (or for some maybe more than that), and when the boyfriend or girlfriend simply betrays what has been built, some cheat, some flirt, some lie, I can understand the pain it costs. I can absolutely comprehend why he or she cannot accept the same person anymore. Or even if he or she forgives you, the feeling will never be the same again. Many couples build trust in a few months, they got married and live happily now. So building trust differs on individual. My mom she once advised me, “Man is always man until the world ends. Is OK to reserve 1% hesitation in one relationship. At least you know the 1% belongs to you to secure your feeling”. My fiancé is aware on this but as he said ‘that will never change the fact that I still 100% trust you, except when you told me that you put on your corset when I knew you did not, or when you said you were not hungry but I could clearly hear your stomach singing’. Yeah, I do not know how to let you know just how my fiancé genuinely trust me. I can date my girlfriends anytime I want, I can meet my friend boy, I can go wherever I want without his present and many more that if I list down will be a long page.

So it is fine if you still in the process to trust your partner. Take your time. Since your partner may possibly be your spouse one day, you need to ensure that the trust is there. If your sister is going to have her first love, never feel hesitate to tell her (any other advice or good words you can think of to give) ‘Please be extra careful in knowing this guy. Do not put the trust fast. No need to hurry with the flow. You will not lose a thing by driving slow in building trust and love. If he loves you, he surely can wait’. When I tell this does not mean that I hate her or envy her happiness or do not want her to be with the guy (unless if the guy is a jerk). You warn someone dear to you in advance because you love them. Bye all, XoXo.

*Ah Ai, a fiancé who cannot trust herself when she is in movie stores*

Breathless

Crazy isn't it?

This is what I'm doing now. Come to the office every morning looking 'slimmer' than I normally look.

I bought Triumph corset at RM299, and started wearing it since day 1 I purchased.

How does it go? On the first day, I could not breathe at all. I was sitting straight for 9 hours on the chair.

I tried finding any possible reason to take it off, alas, the corset was still on me till I got home.

2nd day was better. Starting to get use to it. I kept asking myself "When can I see the result?"

Then my colleague said, "It will works. Just have some patient. It worked on me last time. I wore it everyday to the office. You will see how your posture changed beautifully and no more bloating stomach". So, OK.

I wore it on the 3rd day, and at night I went out having dinner with my fiancée (oops...yeah I know it's dinner, but I stop eating before 9 p.m. though). Then suddenly he said "I can see your tummy is looking better now. Less bloated". Erk, really? That fast? Imagine if I keep on wearing it for a month, or two...imagine how may I look like...hehehe...I surely can get my 28 inch waist backkkkkk......!!! I am excited now. Today is my forth day. Keep it up, Ah Ai! You can do it! Yeay!

Wrong

I am truly wrong when I said I could calm down.

I am not easily can calm down.

That is just not me.

After one difficulty, comes another one.

And the King, he stays cool as always which makes me want to throw him out of the window!

You tell me how can I stay calm when I know the issue is sitting in front of me.

How I wish I could get married in oversea and get rid off this problem.

I am sad. I am depressed.

S.A.D

This is my name for a moment.

*Ah Ai, a human who is tormented of her own failures in the past*

Love Always

"A successful marriage requires falling in love many times,

always with the same person" - Germaine Greer.

Stuck

~ I wish I knew how to choose a make-up artist.

~ How do you guys define a good make up artist?

~ Why when she/he make-up one person, it looks damn good, but when they make-up another girl, huh! It looks scary.

~ I wish I knew how to select a photographer.

~ I wish booking for a post-wedding shoot venue is as simple as A.B.C.

+ I want my closest childhood friend Ainur to be my bridesmaid.

+ The best part is that she has already bought the material for the task given.

+ She kinda excited. =)...which makes me excited also.

+ The King has not chosen his best man so far. It is still a mystery. Haha...

= There are so many things need to accomplish.

= I am still…hunting for the dais design, where to get a cheap ribbon for my hantaran.

= What design baju should I go for majlis bertandang.

= Which location should I choose for the post wedding photo shoot.

= I am stuck!

*Ah Ai, a fiancee who is getting more and more sensitive each day*

It starts here

The preparation starts here!

From little tiny things to a big one.

So far I've booked 1) The Photographer, 2) The Videographer

3) The Make-up Artist, 4) The Caterer

5) The bridesmaid, 6) The Invitation Card

I believe there are a lot more to go.

Yes, I have checklist with me. I bring it along everywhere I go.

And yes, I have the engagement ring on which makes me sometime smile

remembering how far the King and I have came to.

We might took a long way, but inside us we knew we get there someday.

I praise to the Lord for bringing us to the next stage and allow us to still be together.

Amin.

*Ah Ai, who is now on her diet mode*

I am

Saya juga orang Melayu. Saya cukup berbangga.

Biarlah warna kulit gelap dan sawo matang sekalipun (tona kulit tidak sekata…cet!)

Ke mana saya pergi, saya cuba untuk tidak melukakakan hati orang lain.

Baik sesama bangsa atau berlainan agama.

Tapi yang jelas tiada antara kita yang sempurna.

Pernah ada kawan berbangsa Cina bertanya, “I don’t understand why Malay has to eat only Halal food”

Dulu saya dah berikan jawapan, kali ini jawapan saya berbeza:

“You live in Malaysia for 29 years. You should know why.”

Dia boleh jawab, “Why should I know? I am no Malay”

Darah rasa menyirap, tapi saya terus berjalan laju. Diam lebih baik.

Saya juga orang Melayu. Saya sayangkan bangsa saya. Kerana itu saya hantar kereta pada orang Melayu untuk diservis.

Saya hantar kereta untuk bangsa saya basuh, dengan harapan bangsa saya akan maju.

Tapi bangsa saya selalu lupa diri. Kualiti servis selalu tidak sekata.

Orang Melayu juga yang menipu Abah saya di Pahang dulu. Teruk kereta Abah dikerjakan.

Konon mekanik, charge harga mahal. Alih-alih kereta rosak juga.

Rupa-rupanya, mereka gunakan barang terpakai.

Saya juga orang Melayu. Saya Melayu yang pemaaf.

Karam Singh Walia memang silap di mata saya. Tapi benda sudah berlaku.

Saya pilih untuk memaafkan dia. Semoga bila saya belajar untuk memaafkan orang, Allah akan ringan untuk sering memaafkan saya.

Semoga bila saya belajar untuk memaafkan orang, hati saya akan lebih tenang.

Tapi, Anwar Ibrahim pula bagaimana? Dia memecah belahkan bangsa saya kepada tiga. Dia burukkan negara saya di luar negara.

Karpal Singh? Dia bermulut lantang. Dia hina Islam sebagai agama utama.

Wani? Dia mengharu-birukan hubungan saya. Dia menipu dan cuba merampas. Dia kacau ketenangan hidup saya. Dia menyebabkan saya banyak mengalir air mata.

Mampukan saya maafkan mereka?

Saya juga orang Melayu. Dan Islam adalah agama saya.

Saya hormat pada raja-raja. Saya julang bendera Malaysia di mana pun saya berada.

Saya berdiri bila lagu Negaraku dimainkan.

Saya meloncat gembira bila Malaysia menang dalam sukan.

Saya percaya pada Qada’ dan Qadar.

Saya percaya pada hari kiamat.

Saya juga orang Melayu. Dan Islam adalah agama saya.

Saya Melayu dan Islam yang selalu mengharapkan agar tiada sengketa antara bangsa.

Yang selalu mengharapkan Malaysia adalah tempat yang selamat untuk saya duduki bersama adik, suami dan anak-anak kelak dikala Mama & Abah, ibu-ibu saudara saya tiada lagi.

Yang selalu mengharapkan pemimpin di masa hadapan boleh menjalankan tugas sebaik mungkin. Dan membawa kemakmuran.

Saya juga orang Melayu. Dan Islam adalah agama saya.

Sampai mati pun saya tetap orang Melayu, dan Islam satu-satunya agama yang akan saya bawa.